I have this theory that I’d like to test. Depending on the outcome, I may or may not delete this blog after I feel the test is done.
I seem to every once in a while be breaking some social code about how to act or what to do. I’m an introvert and I don’t really like people, but I am also a bit over sensitive to criticism. I put really high demands on myself, and it bothers me a lot when someone accuses me of something.. even more if I feel like I’m wrongfully accused. So once in a while I find myself defending my position til the last straw.
Every so often I also run into prejudge. People who don’t really know me, have a negative attitude towards me. I get the impression that someone else has been saying things about me, to make these people give me attitude. Usually wrongfully so. Most of the time things can be solved by talking about it, but some times people have made their minds up and no matter what I say or do they’re not gonna change their minds.
I was complaining to darth yesterday about how ppl are not taking well to my honesty. He said “either be honest and don’t give a damn about what ppl think.. or you can’t be honest”. But what if I want both? What if I want ppl to accept me for me?
Anyway. There’s this woman going by the name Even Note/ Even Now. I don’t really know her. I know she likes the color sage, has a lot of characters and cosmetic pets and is a proud flower sniffer, in her own words. She also maintains the OurDDO website, which if I recall was intended to replace myddo, when myddo was shut down. At some point in time I believe I stepped on Even’s toes somehow, and since then she’s hated me. The problem, I don’t know what I did, so I don’t know how to fix it. This has been bothering me for years.
I am a problem fixer. If there is a problem I want to address it. But when someone decides to give me the silent treatment instead of talking to me, I tend to go a bit crazy. I haven’t really tried to interact with Even since the initial brush off about 3 years ago, if not more.. but she’s been popping up on the blogs more of late.
I am fully aware that this blog is again breaking social codes.. I’m not supposed to talk about other people at all. That’s why I mean to delete the blog depending on the reactions I get.
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Thank you for reading.
P.S. Even. I wish to offer my sincere apology for … saying things I shouldn’t have.. and what ever else it is that I have done that you hate me for. If you would like me to apologize to you directly, you know where to find me.
P.P.S Added later: Even was on the Players Council with me, and we did have an argument there. I said somethings that offended her, and I refused to change my stance. I wish to apologize for that too. Not for my stance on the matter (I had an opinion, and I can’t very well change it because I’ve offended someone), but for offending her.