I want you to get excited about your life

I hear dr Phil’s voice in my head when I say those words (see Dr Phil House Intro Theme Episode). U23 was just out in ddo, and I will soon post a blog about my experience in epic Orchard, but right now I would like to talk about me, us, ppl, players. Why do you play ddo? What is it that keeps you coming back? Mmo’s can have an addictive effect. Are you addicted and if so, why? Have you thought about it? Does it affect your personality?

For me, it’s rather simple. I’m an introvert. I don’t like ppl. I don’t like the sounds they make or the smells that surround them. Most of the time I want ppl to stay away from me, and I keep my headphones on at work, so I won’t hear the ppl around me. Sometimes my headphones don’t block out the sound well enough and I feel irritated. But at the same time I want company. I want to be acknowledged and appreciated, I want attention. I want to be part of the world and I want to be remembered. 18 years ago I for the first time went on a chat. It excited me, it was fun. 3 years later I was spending a lot of my free time getting to know new ppl in chat rooms, some who I then swapped emails with and allowed to get to know me better.

For a long time I’ve found it difficult to get to know ppl irl, I lock up and I want to just leave. From the safety of my own home I open up and let the others see the real me. When I started playing ddo I was scared and nervous, but soon found I really enjoyed sharing this experience with others. To me ddo was another social media where I could talk with ppl from the safety of my own home. I’ve also always enjoyed playing games and I’m fairy competitive, so I fit right in. Another thing that I noticed was that I enjoy taking charge. I might be really scared of new things, but when I get over the initial fear, I actually really enjoy the responsibility. I want to look out for my group and I want us to succeed.

I have met different kinds of ppl with different attitudes towards the game, and I have let them influence my own attitude. There are some ppl, that have come to to play an important role, though, and they keep me grounded. Having nice things and reaching certain goals in the game should never come before the ppl you play with. I enjoy playing this game, but if it wasn’t for the ppl in it, I would have quit ages ago.

So, what happens when we let the game become more important than ppl? When we become nasty and unfriendly and rude? When things don’t excite us anymore, and all we see are the nerfs? Maybe that is the time to quit? The game is supposed to be fun… if it is no longer fun, if it is affecting your life and the ppl around you.. maybe it’s time to look for something else?

So, to quote dr Phil, “I want you to get excited about your life”.. because this life is all you get.

Thank you for stopping by and have a wonderful day.


Solo’ing ee’s on Thaz at/ under level

In the previous blog I was comparing Thaz and Cerge in ee Outbreak at lvl 24, and was thinking of how to improve Thaz to get her to match Cerge’s run of the quest. I redid her enhancements, swapped out radiant aura for divine disciple tier 5 enhancements, and dropped her heals a bit for lower spellcost when using metas. I also recorded a macro with Razer Synapse (the software that comes with Razer products) for my spell rotation to be used during the boss fights. What the macro does is that it runs through the spells you’ve selected and casts the one that is off timer. This allows you to cast your spells faster, and reduces the risk of carpal tunnel syndrome due to the fact that you don’t have to hit your keys as much and as often as you would without the script.

The changes I did and the script allowed me to get Thaz’s run of the quest down from 24 minutes to 19, and the pot usage down from 12 to 8. I also managed to do it without deaths this time.

Here are Thaz’s enhancements as they’re looking right now:

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Thaz vs Cerge, a comparison take 2

This life Cerge is a morninglord fvs, 1 cleric/ 19 fvs, and I’ve been feeling like he’s pretty good, does well in ee’s and I can solo stuff. So I decided to solo ee Outbreak at lvl 24 (one level under level), which went fine. I have, though, been feeling like my cleric is just better, she has more spells and things die faster. So, to do a proper comparison, I took Thaz into ee Outbreak at 24 to see how she’d do.

The result? Cerge has much less wisdom and lower spell DCs than Thaz, but he killed the red names faster, his spells did more damage per hit. Cerge also took less damage and didn’t need to heal quite as much as Thaz did. Cerge finished the quest in 19 min, for Thaz it took 24, which includes one death. Cerge used 11 mana pots, Thaz 12. Technically Thaz is better than Cerge, better geared, higher wisdom, but I think it’s the Angel of Vengeance enhancements that beat her.

Cerge’s enhancements look like this:

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And then there were two

I made a toon on Cannith back in May 2012 (see Starting over on a new server),  to join Shin’s guild that he had made for myddo writers (mostly). I quickly joined up with Nessana and Domfig (Noob…something was his toon), and we were later joined by Keava and Rilosa. Domfig left us because of irl stuff.. and Keava jumped ship after some disagreements about how to run quests. So left were me, Nessana and Rilosa. We were one time joined by Godscraft and Komrax, but they only ran with the group once and never came back (the toons are still in the guild). Catonrocks joined us after we were a bit into our TR and he stayed with us up until this week, when he announced that he’s not coming back. Nessana left us some weeks ago, because he had gotten tired of ddo and was quitting it all together.

We hit 20 not too long ago, we’ve flagged for CitW and last and this week we ran epic 3bc… even though they were a bit tough for us. My toon hit 23 last week, the others are/ were still 22.  I have been thinking of bringing my toon to Orien, but at the same time it’s fun to see how the other servers are doing.. it feels different. I’m not sure if I’m ready to quit on Cannith yet.

Some pics from this week:

The trio in Prove your worth

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Thaz eTR 2; I changed her looks

… and I’m not sure I like it. Thaz has been blond with blue eyes, pink lips and the same hair style since the first lesser reincarnation I did back in early 2012. The other toons have all changed, I thought I’d change Thaz a bit too. She has the same hairstyle, and blue eyes, but I gave her purple hair, greenish skin, bright red lips and a chin piercing. It only hit me after I did it, that her cosmetic armor is also purpleish, so, she’s gonna be very purple.

I guess if I really hate her looks, I do have some blond hair dyes in the bank.
Here’s the before and after:


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“Need” is relative

I have been playing this game for just over 3 years now, and my cleric Thazara has been with me from the start. I decided early on to never do a true reincarnation with her, and I’ve stuck to my decision, even though people have been telling me that I should TR. A day or so ago someone made the claim I’ve heard before “for epic elites you need past lives”. The word that I get stuck on is “need”. Since I started playing ppl have been telling me I need past lives to be any good, or to be useful for anything but healbotting. I wanted to prove them wrong, I took it as a challenge. Since around the time Thaz hit xp cap for the first time (back in spring of 2012), my goal has been to use what ever tools I have available (enhancements, ed’s, gear), except true reincarnation, to make her as good as I can. The way I play her has changed and I found that the latest build is the one I enjoy the most. I can zerg eh’s, and the mobs die, and I found I can even solo some ee’s.

So, when I heard, again, that you “need” past lives to solo ee’s, I said to myself… ok, I’m gonna attempt to solo ee Haunted Halls and see if I need past lives to do it. Well, what do you know, I didn’t. I needed a bunch of raise cakes, some pots and scrolls, but nope, no past lives. I also needed to kite and kill stuff, but again, past lives no.

Now, don’t get me wrong. I know that I cannot reach the same numbers as a multiple TR. Past lives give you bonuses that my Thaz will never have. But, unless you gear your toon well, choose enhancements and other things carefully, and learn how to run quests, the past lives are not gonna help you.

So, here it is the result of my experiment. I had just woken up after ~5h sleep, I could not remember exactly which passage to go… and when fighting the kobolds I could have played much smarter and just killed them off one at a time instead of trying to get as many as possible, and as a result wasting a lot of mana on missing my target. The quest took me 95 min to complete, which includes a bunch of pointless mistakes I made and running around trying to find my way. I used 22 mana pots and 13 raise cakes… so the run was not cheap.

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Cerge does ees.. again

I’ve been focusing mainly on running ee sagas lately, except for raid night with Osi on Saturdays. I was levelling Cerge and Thaz at the same time last time and I kept feeling like Thaz was just better… might be because she was just that much better geared. Well, I picked up a second twilight, and eTR’d Cerge. I did the three Eveningstar chains and Web of Chaos ee with pug and then posted for ee Druid’s chain the other day. As always I have no interest in waiting for a full group, or any group, lol, I leave the lfm up and ppl can join when or if they want. I had one joiner before I stepped in. I really didn’t have any expectations at all on Cerge’s abilities (he was 23 at the time), but I buffed up and started attacking the trash mobs. It went a lot better than I expected and I had killed the orange named dude that drops the key before the other guy had entered the quest. By the time we got to the end boss I had almost a full group, and I got help with the rest of the chain. I got 24 before the end of the chain.

So, seeing as Cerge was doing so well in Outbreak ee solo, I decided to give it a second go and record it. See the video below. Anything not named or orange I had no problems killing, the CR60 red named took me ~5 min to kill, which was annoyingly long. It didn’t help that they kept attacking me hard, so I had to kite them, and that trash was spawning around too (which didn’t bother me a whole lot as they died fast). I finished the quest in 19 min.

Now I just need got get Cerge to 28 so I can TR him into his next build (see Cerge 5.0)

Thank you for stopping by and have a great day.

Maidae 5.0

As it goes, I’m getting ready to TR both Cerge and Maidae. When they hit 28 that is, which may be a few weeks yet, as I play multiple toons. The plan with Maidae has been to do 3 monk lives, 3 fighter and one barbarian, and she’s currently got 2 monk, 1 barb and 1 fighter (current) life under her belt. This life she’s been a cetus copy and I would like to do a handwraps build next life… just because I haven’t done one since the enhancement changes in U19. Before them I sort of knew how to do a good monk, after I didn’t so I didn’t make one, lol. Now I would like to go back to the wraps… and the fact that I just pulled ee Ivy Wraps the other day, makes my choice just a little bit clearer.

So here’s the build I was thinking:

Character Plan by DDO Character Planner Version 04.20.02
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Level 28 Lawful Good Purple Dragon Knight Female
(12 Fighter \ 8 Monk \ 8 Epic) 
Hit Points: 534
Spell Points: 0 
BAB: 18\18\23\28\28
Fortitude: 22
Reflex: 14
Will: 14

                  Starting          Feat/Enhancement
Abilities        Base Stats          Modified Stats
(36 Point)       (Level 1)             (Level 28)
Strength             18                    30
Dexterity            14                    19
Constitution         16                    21
Intelligence         10                    13
Wisdom               10                    19
Charisma              8                    11

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Cerge 5.0

Alright, my toon Cerge has been an evoker fvs for a while now, and I eTR’d not too long ago (he’s lvl 23 as I write this). My plan with Cerge is to do a different class every TR, and to do classes in ED sphere order. I’ve done arcane (sorc, wiz, bard) and am now working on divine (fvs, cleric, pally). The next class I want to do is cleric. The cleric I imagine is a dual wielder with slashing weapons, and I want to do another morninglord life as I like elves. The build I came up with is a centered kensei with focus on heavy blades. I posted the build on the ddo forums here for feedback/ advice. My plan is to run ee’s and ee sagas, and possibly do 1-2 epic TR’s before the next TR. I’m hoping this build will be good enough for ee Tor.

Without further ado, here’s the build

Character Plan by DDO Character Planner Version 04.20.02
DDO Character Planner Home Page

Level 28 Lawful Good Morninglord Male
(8 Fighter \ 3 Monk \ 9 Cleric \ 8 Epic) 
Hit Points: 408
Spell Points: 510 
BAB: 16\16\21\26\26
Fortitude: 19
Reflex: 12
Will: 16

                  Starting          Feat/Enhancement
Abilities        Base Stats          Modified Stats
(36 Point)       (Level 1)             (Level 28)
Strength             16                    28
Dexterity            14                    19
Constitution         14                    19
Intelligence         10                    13
Wisdom               12                    17
Charisma             14                    19

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The importance of .. stuff

Someone called me a try-hard in relation to ddo, and told me it’s the reason things haven’t always gone my way. I was thinking about it, and they’re sort of right. At times, when there is something I want badly, I tend to get a bit obnoxious. I want it, I want it right away and I will do almost anything to get it… which in ddo has had a tendency to backfire. Or at least partially, as my behavior changes from the person I usually am, to this arrogant, bossy, stressed person. Or it used to.

I know I have been talking about Osi a lot. Of the ppl I have met in ddo, I feel like he’s one of the ppl who’s influenced me the most – and in a good way. Oh, he can be cocky, he makes fun of me and he tells me to do things differently than I do.. which I ignore and do things my way anyway, lol. But he has this calm when it comes to pugs. He knows what he can and cannot do, and this calm confidence has spread to me. He’s also kept saying that ddo is a game, and that being good at a computer game doesn’t make you a better person, but that we should care about people as people, not about the character they portrait.

A lot has changed the last year or so for me in ddo. A year ago I was still searching for my place and I badly wanted to belong. I badly wanted a raiding guild for a chance to raid more. Then what happened was that a friend introduced me to a group of ppl who had decided to start running ee FoT regularly, and I started running with them. When U21 was out, I ran the new raids for the first time with this group, and the next few Deathwyrm runs I did, I ran with one person from the group. Then he told me to start leading them… and I dragged a guildie of mine in there to learn the puzzles.

I guess I kind of copied some of these ppl, because they were farming the raids to get the 20th completion, and I decided to do the same. I joined a few others’ runs, but many of the runs I hosted myself and for a few weeks I was running these raids every day… and on Sundays multiple runs.  I got a 20th completion on both raids on 3 toons, and then I lost most inspiration to run them. As a matter of facts, raids in general lost most of their charm. I still do the weekly raid marathon with Osi.. because I enjoy raiding with him, and I have ppl who wait for them, but the excitement I used to have for raids has slowly faded.

What I have learned, though, is that ppl like me a lot better when I stick to being calm, confident and helpful. So, this is what I try to do. Having played ddo for a while now, and having built up a little bit of confidence in my toons and my skills, it has become easier. I have also done a lot more solo’ing lately than I ever did before, and I’m learning quests so I can lead better. I mean, I lead raids, but my quest knowledge has generally been poor.

Okidoke, I’m not going to bore you with more, so thank you for stopping by and happy hunting.