Lately the word “awesome” has popped up in my head quite often concerning some players. The awesome players are the ones I admire and wish I was more like. I am constantly working on it, but over and over fail because of my own insecurities. Now, I guess I should explain what kind of players I mean? I meet them every so often, and I start looking for their lfm after running with them once. The “awesome” players are the ones who are calm and confident. Who never pick on others, or yell at them when things go wrong. The person who leads others to victory, but doesn’t care if things aren’t super smooth every time.
These players inspire confidence in others and in them for just being good at what they do without having to push others down. They can be min-maxers or just your average casual player but what they have in common is their calm ways and self-confidence. The other side is the lack of care about what others say and think. I wish I was more like that.
I keep wanting what others have, and wanting to do what others do… while stressing a lot about not being fast enough, not having enough time, or just not having the right skills or knowing the right tricks. I have to over and over tell myself “relax, you’ll get there eventually”. I have intentionally focused on the journey rather than the goal, because the goal is not important. I’d rather be different than one among the crowd and I may be a lot slower than most, but I wouldn’t want to give up more of my mental health for a game than I already do.
In short, I admire a lot the players who are confident, calm, kind and helpful to others while they do not care what ppl say about them. I wish I was more like this, and I keep working on it.
Thank you for stopping by and have a great day.
P.S If I’ll name some names, the first two that come to mind are my boy Osi, and Item/R.. but there are many others.